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Babara
Dear Master Li and Fellow Practitioners, I knew the first time that I saw someone doing Falun Gong that this was what I wanted to do. When I saw a practitioner sitting in the lotus position and completely still while everything around was in turmoil, I knew that this was what I wanted to do. Of course the practitioners were all very kind and I soon had all the information that I needed to get started. It is hard for me to put forward my thoughts. I am the type that likes to listen to others and arrange my thoughts inwardly and be by myself. I am still pondering over what to write. I know that the last time I saw my doctor he said, "Whatever you are doing keep it up. You have a good glow." I am sure that my practice of Falun Gong has everything to do with it. I know that I have a lot of work to do with attachments. Some are easy to let go of while others are more difficult. My biggest challenge is to do. I love to think about what I should do and I love writing down lists of things that I want to do. But doing is my big problem. Some times I even have to trick myself into doing things. I was very glad to read that these ideas of mine are something that I have acquired postnatally and are not my actual self. As the introduction to the fourth exercise states, "Return to Origin and Go to Truth", I feel that this is what I really want to do. It also states, "Heart Clear Like Pure Jade". I really want to be able to return to my origin and return with a heart of pure jade. However, my thoughts are always ahead of me and now it is my struggle to unite them. In the past I have always failed but with Falun Gong I feel that I am making progress. I was never able to practice at home and would not always read the material that I wanted. Now I have read Zhuan Falun four times and still find something new every time that I read it. I was happy to hear Master Li state, " only when you have ordinary human thoughts can you cultivate; only when you have ordinary human thoughts can you waver; and only when you have ordinary thoughts can you determine the right path you take amidst the wavering. This is cultivation." Master Li gives you the words that you need at the right moment. Now I really feel that I am a cultivator. As Master Li states in, "Essentials for Further Advancement" July 6, 1998, "This Fa is inconceivably enormous, and you will never completely know or understand its laws and principles." Now when I look around and see things I realize how immense and how minute things are. I know that I would be grateful just to be a Dafa particle. I will continue to read and cultivate for as Master Li states in "Essentials for Further Advancement", August 3, 1998, "Reading the books more and studying the books more is the key to genuinely upgrading yourself." My goal is to seek enlightenment and to do what is necessary to get there. I am really looking forward to going to Orlando. This should be a wonderful experience and a great sharing adventure with my fellow practitioners. Sincerely,
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